right and wrong

i just need to write about something, anything. i have to much on my mind and really need to start using this tool anyway. what a great way to organize your thoughts, to store them, a repository to dump all your data to peruse later and reorganize to come to better answers. why don't i do this more? this is something that i should make a habit, a nightly thing before i go to bed, something to do so i can plan and prepare myself for things to come. its perfect really, i've written about this before, where journals are mirrors; they reflect everything back so whoever looks into it can find the answers. we have so many problems as humans and so little of us learn how to release it, how to organize it, how to jot it all down. these simple tools help us progress not only as individuals but an entire human race. because not only do we help ourselves with daily life problems; our solutions directly affect our communication with one another so that our conversations are always living at the edge of our intelligence. we don't need the internet for that, facebook, blogs, twitter; none of those hive-mind arenas. all those do is help to speed up the progression. interesting...

I'm writing here tonight frustrated with the decisions some people make, specifically the people i live with and my family. my family has a knack for defending our view points, perspectives, opinions and conclusions. we believe what we know is the "right" way, the only true way to live by; because we constantly strive to figure things out on our own. since this is the case, we are very independent and impatient, hardly willing to give others time to explain their views to us because those conversations bring about disagreements and conflicts. i believe many people have this problem and its one of the leading road blocks to helping us better understand and accept one another. we have the power to change that though, and this is what i, personally, am trying to practice. my brother believes he is right on most things and will defend tooth-and-nail his view. he leaves very little room for anyone to interject and offer a different view. when it enters his ears it has to immediately comply with his thoughts, and if it does not it gets very little chance of succeeding any further. one must be very patient when dealing with him in this way, because the words that you choose to speak need to make sense to him immediately. is that judgment? maybe he is passing judgment on them to soon. maybe its me being defensive because i do that a lot, so does he. i'm trying to make it better and take a more subjective approach to it when looking back. its ridiculous how much effort is spent with some of our arguments, i just don't understand sometimes how they can be dragged on. i know i can improve the words i choose to speak, and that's what i'm trying. for now i'll let this tool help me to speak more rationally, so that i can be more accommodating to the views of others before giving them my opinions and thoughts of what i believe is right. right and wrong are such frivolous concepts; they are created and destroyed as naturally as the universe handles its energy, yet some how we think we have control over it.